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H Writes's avatar

This piece is raw, honest and beautifully written. Sometimes the world overlooks our own kinda beauty, but that doesn’t make it any less real.

I don’t see someone broken here but I see someone who’s brave enough to say out loud what so many people feel but never admit.

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Lillian Kennedy's avatar

that’s so kind of you, thank you so so much <3

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Emma Julie's avatar

Wow, I can relate to this so much! It’s beautifully written, you have a talent :)

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Lillian Kennedy's avatar

thank you so much <3

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Misty Spies's avatar

Thank you for sharing this so authentically - writing in such capturing words! I’ve been here before and it can be so utterly devastating. I hope writing this was as cathartic as it was to read it!

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Lillian Kennedy's avatar

it was indeed very cathartic and freeing. Thank you for reading my work and for sharing your thoughts 🫶

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Aymen's avatar

I felt this…not the exact feeling but the rawness itself. I honestly don’t have words to explain how beautifully written this is. It’s quite literally your heart spilling its words in the most elegant way.

You are not broken. Never ever believe or even think that. You are brave and aware of yourself which is amazing in itself because not everyone is aware of who they and what they feel. And every single person is loved they just don’t know it yet 💜

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Lillian Kennedy's avatar

this made me emotional, thank you so much for your kind words - you made my day ☺️

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Sofaraway's avatar

Oh wow I feel like such a bad friend cus I can definitely relate to so much of this!☹️

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Lillian Kennedy's avatar

you’re not alone in this feeling, it doesn’t make you a bad friend <3

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Tyler Fleischel's avatar

This hit a soft spot for me. I know what it’s like to go unnoticed, and I especially hate it when people don’t notice the things you want them to. It’s clear that aside from beauty you also have a deep emotional awareness, and a talent for writing. I really hope you can find someone who shows affection for those attributes, who wants to stick around. Please keep writing ❤️

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Lillian Kennedy's avatar

that’s so kind of you, thank you ☺️

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Zen Zephyr's avatar

I just wanted to say I really love the raw honesty and emotion in your writing. Keep writing (=

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Lillian Kennedy's avatar

that’s so kind, I really appreciate it 🫶

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Robin's avatar

So many people struggle with this- especially women, who are constantly compared and pitted against each other since childhood. It’s beautiful how you wrote this - so honest about your pain, but with no resentment or slights at your friend. Your friendship must be so special to be able to share your feelings about it in this way.

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Lillian Kennedy's avatar

that’s so kind of you, yes my friendship is very special indeed. Thank you for reading my work :)

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Johnnie's avatar

This is one problem many people struggle with and I'm so glad that you put it out there. I have such a pal too

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Lillian Kennedy's avatar

thank you for reading my work & for your kind words, I really appreciate it :)

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ꪖ𝘴ꫝ's avatar

The beauty you see in people is a reflection of the beauty in you. It's about time you start cherishing who you are cuz beautiful is in fact in the eyes of the beholder.

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Lillian Kennedy's avatar

that’s so kind, thank you <3

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Anil Talwar's avatar

That’s a hauntingly honest message raw, vulnerable, and deeply introspective. She’s opening up about identity, self-worth, and the quiet ache of being in someone else’s shadow, even when love and admiration are still present. A good reply will acknowledge her pain without minimising it, hold space for her, and offer subtle encouragement, not cliché comfort.

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Lillian Kennedy's avatar

thank you ☺️

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Lara's avatar

This is so vulnerable and written with such beautiful authenticity. You’ve articulated something so challenging with such grace - more of this <3

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Lillian Kennedy's avatar

thank you so much, I really appreciate your kind words <3

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Cory's avatar

This is a strong message and it really shouts from the soul. It's not easy being compared to and it's even harder holding down the growing negative emotions. The fact that you're able to understand the differences in how you love her, but also still struggle with being compared to her means you have a strong bond with her still.

I honestly don't think you should strive to be like her, if you have a string commotion already, just be yourself. The person looking for you will then be asking her where you are. This will be one of the first big connections you'll start to feel rather than feeling overlooked. I don't think you should compare yourself to her and instead should be proud that she's the way she is and you are the way you are.

Now for the one night stand things that make you upset at yourself, try taking a step back, reflecting, and really ask yourself why you self sabotage here. The more you do this, the worse people you'll attract into your life. It's not so much that you're and easy girl, it's more that you want to be seen too. Just this isn't the way to go about it, you're seen in the moment, but forgotten shortly after.

Already you've reflected on what's going on around you, the love you still have for your friend, and even the trauma you are dealing with from feeling unseen. You've pretty much already taken the hardest step for most people, understanding what is happening. Now all you need to do is take a step forward into who you really want to be, which should just be you.

At least that's my opinion here. I hope you cherish yourself more, you're seen as you, yourself, don't try and change yourself into a new mold that doesn't fit you. You'll lose your charm and feel even more lost.

Have a lovely day, and I hope you the best!

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Lillian Kennedy's avatar

thank you so much for reading my work & taking the time to leave such a lovely comment! I appreciate your kind words, have a lovely day <3

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Simran Sharma's avatar

This is hauntingly beautiful. yYu may see yourself as lesser but through your words, your depth and strength shine bright!

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Lillian Kennedy's avatar

that’s so kind of you, thank you so much! ☺️

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avani’s journal's avatar

beautifully expressed, it’s often we tend to ignore our own qualities when someone else is having all that we want. we are different humans and to voice that and understand that is hard for us. personal awareness is so so important. love this piece raw and vulnerable. I’ve felt like this too, but i have this trick i use, whenever i feel envy or want to be like someone, i ask myself - “would i want to trade life with her, all of her life, from her childhood, her house, her personality, everything” almost every time the answer is no, i would always find something I didn’t like or find something I’m grateful for in my life!! Anyways, just yapping, interesting read !! KEEP WRITING, next time we need get to know YOU more <3

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Lillian Kennedy's avatar

that’s great advice, thank you for sharing - you’re right, it’s so important to remind ourselves of the good things in our lives! Thank you for reading my work 🫶

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Curtis J Neeley Jr's avatar

. . . This is an interesting way to look at the beauty of my spouse. At First; Marcy is a beauty admired by all who see her helping others and is respected by all who see her make daily life bearable for so many of the developmentally disabled. This is the wholesome beauty of the angel the speaker in this piece envies or admires depending on the situation.

. . . But Privately; Marcy is aware of the base pleasure her body can physically cause when she chooses. She can massage a body part purely to relieve the physical discomfort being felt. These same hands can take the body being massaged to an extremely erotic and lust filled high place. While privately with this type lustful tenor; the soft fullness of Marcy’s large breasts ignite raw physical attraction and desire. The same hands that soothe so often can wring out exquisite orgasms if Marcy so chooses.

. . . .Maybe the speaker helps us recognize the wholesome beauty she described in the angel can be the same lust filled beauty she recognized to be two faces of the very same person. This piece is describing one side of a coin recognizing the other side exists and will and must always work together. Bravo!

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Lillian Kennedy's avatar

thank you for taking the time to read my work and for sharing your thoughts :)

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Curtis J Neeley Jr's avatar

You are welcome. Thank you for sharing your thoughts.

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